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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 09:32

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I never cut or harmed myself..

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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And i lived it daily.

I think the readers, may guess!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

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I was scared of men, in general

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Has anyone shared his wife with a friend? How was it?

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

When was the last time you had sex with someone much older than yourself?

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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I could never make a relationship work though!

Comes on , in middle age.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He resisted the act ,that day.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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It was going to be , some day.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I know ,a lot about trauma.

When did bestiality first occur to you and how did it happen the first time? Was it a deliberate decision or it just happened and you allowed it?

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

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But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

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Put me off passion for life!!

Would this be the day?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I was 9 years of age.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

So whats the point in blame.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I was very sick at this time too.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

When she asked me how she looked .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Ive learnt so much.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She married twice! .

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

So, i spoilt her more .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

She was in good health!

I was seconnd youngest,

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

But it wasn’t much.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I will be 64.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I have no regrets .

She wouldn,t have been !

He knew the spot.

We were not on the streets..

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I waited trembling.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I write beautiful poetry .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I said to her

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

What did i know ?

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Im still living with it.

This is soul school!.

We all went to grammer schools

She found it foreign!.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

But, we were locked up after school.

All the time i was locked up.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Why did i forgive my father ?

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

(And it was in our own minds.)

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

One cannot live in the past .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I don,t even have a pension.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

My life is so biszare .

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I couldn’t, believe it.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

She loved him until the end.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Who then, do I blame.?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Especially a lifetime of it.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

This is how, and why children get BPD.

My family never makes their pension either.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.